looking up.

Week 32.

"I lift my eyes into the mountains-- where does my help come from?  My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth."  Psalm 121: 1-2

I confess that I do not lift my eyes up to the hills enough...  Sometimes I do.  But sometimes, I am too weak to.  And yet other times, I simply choose not to.

Those are the times that are most scary-- when I choose not to look for the Lord.  When I choose instead to hide my face and pretend that God is not confusing or that I am not afraid of Him.

Gosh, this is hard... looking up, I mean.  For some time now, I have been unwell.  I talk more about it in this blog post on my other blog.  I wrote it nearly a month ago, but I am still struggling now.  Struggling to slowly but surely look up at the One who will save me, and trust Him to do so.

All I can say is, God has BLESSED me with the best friends in the world-- friends who love me so truly, they will bear with and honor me above even themselves.  It is in this fact that I feel the Lord's love for me in this season.

There are not many mountains in Thailand, but there sure are lots of palm trees...

looking up.

Overall,though, this was a good week.  Soul-filling, heart healing.  We had a visitor from America.  And he and I had some looooooong conversations.  His kind listening and wise counsel was exactly what I needed to get back on track.